TO ZIDANE............

The argentine digs into his pocket grabbed the card and paced towards the scene, the right hand brandishing the red and the left pointing to the tunnel.
He has been a magician on green grass; master of the ball that bows to the maestro when touched. Denied a place in the Algerian national soccer team, scored 2 goals in 17 minutes in his French debut; the two time goal scorer in the final world cup of the last millennium, protagonist in the French euro victory; multiple Serie A titles, la Liga and champion ship title, ended the fairy-tale with a nefarious assault caused by a vicious interplay of caustic oratory. He has fed the game with style and spirit. It isn’t fair, he deserves more.
Few words with the argentine, he removes his captain band, passes it to team-mate, walks off the scene, few words with coach, he kept walking away, unwrapping the plasters on his fingers, head bent, walks towards the cup, drops the plasters, strodes past the golden trophy, head still bent, into the tunnel and disappears. He was sent into shame and retirement. Zizou scripted the epic over an entire decade, but saved the climax for the final minutes of his final game. A week has passed, but the chasm of compunction that has percolated into deep depths of my inner self continues to taunt me. He constructed the symphony, so sublime, only to leave let the coda ravage and devour the followers of Zidaneism. Nostalgia engulfs, when I see his acrobatic retrieval of the out-bound ball in his Juventus 21 jersey; his innumerable step-overs; the relentless signature zidane turns, precision free-kicks; his classic chest on ball, 360 turn and pull back, baffling Damas. But this only leads to melancholia to witness the ugly farewell to the king. It isn’t fair, he deserves more……
To Zidane……..you are the god.

long time no see

The Gods are like PhD advisors. Their groups are eternally replete with projects and funding. And how I wish he was a Leninist for he would have ensured an equal distribution of funds. They are not socialists, which is they are naughty capitalists. Projects and fundings are assigned on parameters which “elders” speculate are a result of past deeds. And the result is the spectrum of mankind - some rich and some poor; some good others bad; some happy others abysmally sad; some work, others fuck and a sizeable good number get fucked. Or if I could say, he forces us to dance to his tunes, by defining our freewill and making us live our lives and play our roles. When one project is finished, a new one is assigned. But he, I think is not a lot smarter mother fucker than man and will obviously run out of ideas and plots. And this when happens, he schemes the same old plot but with different characters. “Dejavu” happens, though not as frequent as shit happens, but often times of the same magnitude. It’s indeed a new scene, a new free will, and an apparent new you, but you will always achieve the same level of fuckedness like old times.

Attitude

An improvisation of the unified field theory would be to include the abstract entity “attitude” to its theoretical framework and claim that the theory would explain the nature and behavior of not only physical matter, but also abstract matter. It follows laws of conservation like energy and mass. One tends to have more of it while others lack it, giving it the balance. “Attitude is conserved.” It flows from a higher potential to lower potential, like how one would expect any other physical entity should. Or if I could say, it’s an osmosis process. The transfer is governed by concentration gradient. It probably does follow ficks law. The rate of “give” of attitude is directly proportional to the amount of it and probably so is the second derivative. It is obviously hard to keep the spurs from jingling and jangling if there is a gradient. Similar relations it does follow with a chemical reaction. It could be speculated that there exists a minimum energy namely the activation energy, which has to be over come, else u get it back.
So why is the fuss, when someone assumes a fonzy. Attitude and arrogance aint the same ballpark. It is an attitude cycle- someone gives it to you and you give it to someone else and that someone else to another someoneone else and that another someoneelse gives it to that someone who gave it to you. Its existence is ignored when you give it. Inside every brain, there gotto be a whore that is satiated only by actions that bring pride and conceit to it, and satisfaction this way it comes.

Permanency Paradox

Permanency Paradox

There is a philosophical stance that claims that, permanency never exists. Any life form or matter, physical or abstract, can never be permanent; nor are facts; nor is faith. There sustenance is contingent on many parameters, which would aid, only when they are permanent too. In this concatenated web, the non-permanency of any one species eventuates in the non-permanency of the rest.
But then this claim is strained. It qualifies only when the fact-“nothing is permanent” is permanent.

It only goes to show how stupid and easy it is to make philosophies in life. All it takes is warming the potty for a few minutes and try and find ways to state the obvious.

A man with one watch knows what time it is; a man with two watches is never quite sure. – unknown jackass.

#140 & #325, Alak @ IIT MADRAS

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There's a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we've been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever

I ask for forgiveness

This is always an important day, for the reasons esoteric. It is an unusual and, I think, unusually important day today. I may not be quite as easy with my words today as I have been in years past, and I was up rather late last night thinking about and praying about what I ought to say today. So if you will forgive me, I will do my best to say what it is I want to say to you. First, I want to say to all of you that, as you might imagine, I have been on quite a journey these last few weeks to get to the end of this, to the rock bottom truth of where I am and where we all are. {Inspired by Clinton}. I am an outcast. I am a Ganguly in the Indian cricket team, a Beckham in the 98 world cup English team, satan of the Hebrew apocrypha, a Judas Iscariot who betrayed Jesus, a Brutus who brutally killed Caesar, a Tony Clifton or a Andy Kauffman for sick anti-humor, a Vanunu in Israel. I cannot do it like others. I wish I knew what it takes or have I lost the zeal, the vigor. I am not an old junkie. Why doesn’t it flow into my mind, tickle my synapses, hurt my conscience and make me do it. Is it time constraints or so it seems. I wish I could envisage in it “a floydian seduction” or “a seraphic, elysian green innocence” or “a soccer’s adrenaline rush”. I wish I could join communities that I forget after I join; I wish I could read others scraps and peek into their privacy; I wish I could scrap, read as flirt, unknown people; I wish I could don a false identity other than keep in touch with buddies. My soul wanders beyond boundaries, to uncover a reason for me to become a part of this community, which means-“the holy meeting place” in Turkish and “orgasm” in Finnish.
I ask for forgiveness.

There's Plenty of Room at the Bottom

Click here http://www.zyvex.com/nanotech/feynman.html
for the transcript of the talk given by feynman at the annual meeting of Americal Physical Society at Caltech.
I would consider this the best prediction of science now and to come. He envisages science concurring to the constrains of the future technologies. This man seems to have known all of it. From my course PHY598 and some handouts..here is a bief interpretation of his predictions

We would just have to press the same metal plate again into the plastic and we would have another copy.
This is the PDMS stamp technology developed by Whitesides.

We can reverse the lens of an electron microscope in order to demagnify as well as magnify.Ha ha E-beam lithography.Modern lithography is used to produce posters, books, newspapers, packaging, credit cards, CDs.

A source of ions, sent through the lens in reverse, could be focused to a very small spot.-Focused Ion beam Lithography.

Now, instead of writing everything, as I did before, on the surface of the head of a pin, I am going to use the interior of the material as well--3D storage not yet practical in this form. Layered structures common in IC manufacture and layered materials

you simply evaporate until you have a block of stuff which has the elements--
Molecular beam epitaxy for layered materials; layered structure of integrated circuits.

Consider any machine – for example, an automobile- and ask about the problems of making an infinitesimal machine like it.
MEMS it is. Some sub micron MEMS.

What could we do with layered materials with just the right layers?
Here he is refering to layered semiconductors and magnetic multilayers.

It is possible to emit light from a whole set of antennas , like we emit radio waves.---Is he fucking refering to Nanophotonic materials.

We could use, not just circuits, but some system involving quantized energy levels, or the interaction of quantized spins.
This dude predicted quantum computing and spintronics.